stuff i'm really into right now

-chili bean paste
-hanging out by myself
-anti pasti
-looking through photos
-grace paley
-thinking about what kind of life i would be living if i sold all of my clothes and started grad school and learned spanish
-not looking at facebook right now
-playing apples to apples with buddies and realizing that i'm totally in line with the same freaky weirdness that we're all into
-miso soup
-tidying up the kitchen
-hoping i'll get something in the mail
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stuff that's really bringing me down

-that i'm breaking out like a 15 year old
-my paycheck
-my wrist is fucked up from making kombucha and i can't really afford to quit
-facebook
-everyone's facebook updates
-the stuff people post on each others' facebook pages
-not being able to stop staring at facebook
-the united states government
-how i wish i wanted to go running today
-"my career"
-how come i never wanna party anymore!?!?!?!?!
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i am feeling grumpier than ever and thinking about how nice it would be to fall in love and get the fuck out of olympia. i'm stuck in a worm hole where all i do is read comic books and go running and eat candy and wish things were different. there. a little insight into some seriously boring plod-of-time-shit to pour into the internet ether.

hi oliver! sorry, i guess this is a little gross, but i don't think anyone reads this blog but you. i miss you, brother. i kind of want to talk on the phone, but i'd much rather just hang out. how about you come and visit me again? we can climb mt. rainier or mt. st. helens if that'll get you here. or you could send me a letter.

i don't know where i'm expecting to get a ride to, but i've been checking the craiglist rideshare a few times a day as i do my embarrassing internet sweep of weird recipe blogs, pictures of shoes, youtube videos, missed connections and free stuff. I guess I've replaced new job and new house with getting the hell outta dodge.

i'm also on cup of coffee #2, and i can feel the nervousness setting in. i don't really have enough time to go running today, but i think i might have to if i can't shake this feeling (that i seriously brought on myself and am entirely responsible for). I've been running a lot recently, and my mornings have begun to follow this script:

SHE WAKES UP. SQUINTS AT CLOCK, CAN'T SEE IT THROUGH CLUTTER ON DESK, DOESN'T CARE. STARTS TO CARE, SITS UP IN BED TO SEE CLOCK, REALIZES THAT THERE'S NO STOPPING IT NOW AND SHE'S AWAKE. 7AM. LIES HEAD BACK DOWN AND STARES AT CLOCK FOR HALF AN HOUR. THEN,

(internally) hannah: i don't want to go running today. i don't need to. i can take a day off.

SHE THROWS OFF THE BLANKETS, LEAVING THEM CRUMPLED ON HER BED AS SHE GOES TO WASH HER FACE. FROM THERE, SHE HEADS TO THE KITCHEN WHERE SHE MAKES COFFEE. RETURNS TO THE BEDROOM WITH MUG AND SITS IN FRONT OF THE COMPUTER TO READ BLOGS, FACEBOOK AND PLAY SCRABBLE (BADLY). FINISHES CUP OF COFFEE, BRIEFLY EXITS, RETURNS WITH FULL MUG.

HALFWAY THROUGH SECOND MUG,

(internally) hannah: oh no. i feel weird. i drank too much coffee. I've gotta go running. just a short run.

PUTS ON RUNNING CLOTHES AND SHOES, EXITS. RETURNS AN HOUR LATER, DRIPPING WITH SWEAT, HAVING RUN 6 MILES WITHOUT PLANNING ON IT AGAIN.





i've also expanded my dreamdate to include BOTH watching a meteor shower and eating sugar cereal, as opposed to the previous one or the other scenerio. gotta dream big to fall in LUV!

i started an etsy shop!

http://www.etsy.com/shop/totallydreaming


i swear it'll get better!

updater!!!!

so babies, here's a running list of names get stuck in my head: oi polloi, scritti politti


just two, but i like their rhyme.

New Issue of the Hair Zine is out!!!

Issue #2 of the Hair Zine: Friends and Family is finally out. Featuring interviews with two moms on cancer, one mom comic, one dad story, and an interview with a hairdresser. new issue features a centerfold and bag of hair.

my VHS collection

As of January 9, 2011

The pink panther strikes again
the Red Balloon
Diary of a mad housewife
episode #14 of the prisoner
episode #1 of twin peaks
The Princess Bride
Reality Bites
The Jesus and Mary Chain : videos 1985- 1989
Sonic Youth: Screaming fields of sonic love
Being John Malcovich
Drowning Mona
Sliding Doors
Stranger than paradise
Tank Girl
Hannah and Her sisters
Phat Beach
Nine Months

DVDs are:

Paper Rad: Trash Talking
Ladies and Gentlemen: The Fabulous stains (old bootleg)
Le Samourai
Branded to Kill
Take the Money and Run



in other news, this is the list that's making me feel best about my lazy old overworked self right now. time to leave the house and buy some coffee for goodness sakes. time to take a terrific vacation to the warmest place to be found instead of poaching candy canes off of the faded christmas tree in search of a fleeting sugar rush.time to quit patting myself on the back for a motley list of movies i barely make it all the way through.




blllllllaaaaaaahhhhh.